goodbyes
the end, distance
the chasm, time and space
when it's time to reunite, mean
nothing

infinity

holographic walls
colors slithering, smearing
i close my eyes shut

caught in between worlds
neither here nor there, i stand
trapped, indecisive

never have i moved
moon and stars for anyone
but for you i will

a thousand lifetimes,
a thousand more i will live
to find you again

stand in the circle
in the remembering, breathe
stay with me. here. now.

dream of me. and i, you. that is where we meet. where we've always met. remember. try to remember. hold on tho this. and you will never lose me. we'll always find each other. here. know in your heart that i am here. where you found me. where the stars took us to sea. when you think it unbearable. this distance. the vastness of the chasm that separates us. the loneliness. the cold strange empty hotel room. i will be here dreaming. holding you. soothing you. til the fears. the ghosts. and the darkness recede.

"love is brief: forgetting lasts so long."

how true could this line be.
faces burn bright in my mind. too bright, they burn through my soul to my dreams.
i am seldom denied of what i wish for. and sometimes i forget that. 
now i try to be very careful about it. hahahhah.
but there are times i wish i could show you what i see. so you would understand.
i wonder if i already got that wish.
i saw you for who you are. for who you could be. but that was a long time ago.
and the last time i saw you, i saw somebody else.
you hide so much. burdens you inflict upon yourself.
you were spinning, vibrating with this urgency.
and wanting lots of things at the same time.
and like you wanted to be in different places at the same time.or do multiple things. trying to finish them off in one sitting.
you do these things. lots of things.
and at the end of the day, after all that you have achieved.
you still feel empty. dissatisfied.
if i could, i would have sedated you.
but i am not free to do as i wish. i am not a healer.
i wish i can soothe you like that first time i was with you. lull you to sleep...
but i don't think i am allowed to do that anymore.may you finally find that which you always seek. and may it bring you peace and happiness.
wherever you are. whoever you are with.
love, for now and always...